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Monday, October 29, 2001
nia and jonathan came over for dinner today. they thought we were supposed to go out to eat... but turns out there was some miscommunication with dad. i actually had a miscommunication instance with him as well - regarding which church service i was going to as well as visiting grandma together. its resolved now... but *sigh* another person in the house to deal with. isall good. xxx Sunday, October 28, 2001 just got back from watching "what lies beneath" with e-money. it was scary! harrison ford is a BAD BAD MAN! xD xxx Saturday, October 27, 2001 well... my past 2 days have been awesome. there's just something great about being with people you love, and people who basically are "in it together" with you. in the same walk of life, with the same hardships, struggles, and joys. yesterday, julie and i drove to berkeley, and along the way we were supposed to pick up wilson, but we forgot! whoops! =\ so he had to drive and meet us there himself. then from berkeley, we picked up nikky and drove on up north to our lovely capital of sacramento to first covenant baptist church - to attend a passion conference. i met nikky in new york during my junior year spring break, she was there with julie, i was there with jimmy... so this was our little "travel buddies reunion!" :D w00t! the conference was a good reminder for me to be, as one of the songs said, "undignified" for Christ. i don't think i've been doing that lately - just lack of fellowship with others, and being in a jobhunt slump - basically losing a lot of trust and hope in God. it was by God's grace that he allowed me to experience his holy spirit again. and just to be able to join with so many others in corporate worship and prayer to Him who is so worthy. yeah, as julie put it, being able to "worship freely." i miss that. eric and peter also drove up to sacramento with laura, but they missed the concert. i really wanted them to be there, but as peter aptly put it, "i'm more passionate about you (referring to me) than i am about passion". AHAHAHAHAA xD he was molesting me the whole night too. OH! guess who i saw there. LIZ! liz tong! it was so crazy, but cool at the same time. haven't seen that girl since last quarter of school... she goes to UC Davis law school which was about 20 mins away. we had some good times reminiscing at denny's afterwards. then long drive back to berkeley. *sleepy* slept til about 11 today. headed over to nikky's place with wilson and eric to meet up with her and julie. then we headed out for lunch. but julie got her car towed! ai! nikky told her to park it in this spot that says "no parking owners will be towed" cuz she did it all last year or something. :( so that sucked. but julie couldn't do much about it cuz she had to have her aunt, the registered owner of the car, come and get it outta the pound. so we just hit up this place called thai delight. MAN it was good. alas... good things come to an end. and here i am once again, all by myself, on this fine, quiet, saturday evening. and as the fun times and the friends all returned to their own individual homes, my thoughts turned back to reality. JOB. but its ok. i'm gonna live an "undignified" life for Christ. yes, even if that means to be poor, and living at home. i mean... these 2 girls (one 24, the other 29), some 2 months ago, gave up everything so that they could go minister and to hear the name of Jesus praised in Afghanistan. now they're sitting in a taliban jail for proclaiming that very name. what am i whining for? how does my jobless situation compare to what they're going through? should i have doubts and uncertainties? no. God is in control in all circumstances - in my life and also those in Afghanistan. i need to remember that. xxx Friday, October 26, 2001 man i feel like crap. i want a job. tof got a job. why can't i got a job. why do other people have it good? yes... you may say look at the half-full cup. ok i will. my mommy and daddy love me. i have a roof over my head. i eat quite well. but lets get back to what we were intially whinning about. why can't i have a job???? xd xxx Thursday, October 25, 2001 ahaha... this is funny I AM 22% GEEK. 
Take the GEEK Test at Fuali.com! xxx well... today i got up early for once. dad came home yesterday, i picked him up from the airport. we went to a free breakfast buffet... that's why i got up early. then i went straight to my job interview at 10:30. it was weird. i mean... it was very very informative as to interest rates, and mutual funds, and how people need to look to investing for the future. so i was "hired"... lemme explain the quotations. it was basically, "oh, you're a young, bright, capable young man who's had some experience with finance and economics, and we have all these mutual funds and services to sell, and we could also use someone who is also bilingual, so WELCOME TO THE TEAM!" it was weird. so like... err... i'm still not sure what it is i'll do exactly. but i think i'll probably be selling stuff. dangit! hope i don't have to cold call no jackals who will just hang up on me. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! muwahaha... oh yeah... that includes me! xD anyways... i guess the job is on commission or something. i called the lady to gimme more info, cuz i thought up all this junk after i came home, but she hasn't returned my call yet. whoot. but i guess its good... something for me to do. i will be taking classes to prepare me for these trading licenses... so its better than sittin' on my arse and going no where right?! that's what i'm saying... then i was supposed to go have lunch with smashmouth today. cuz gloria won some contest to have lunch with them and also free tickets to their concert tonight at the fillmore. but shoot... the interview took a little long... and she wouldn't wait 10 mins... yes 10 MINS. for me! we totally could've made it there on time... but NOOOOOO. oh well. no pictures or autographies with smashmouth. i was late to my dentist... errr... oral surgeon appointment today. i had to deal with all this plane ticket stuff for caleb. mom couldn't decide what she wanted him to do, fly home, hitch a ride. then the ticket HAD to be cheap. gosh! *shakes head* asian parents. i was like... "dude mom! just pay an extra $40 bucks... then caleb can be home for 3 extra hours." and she was like "the heck with that!" - not her exact words. but you get the picture. yeah so at the dentist... the guy jacked up my lip while extracting my wisdom teeth right? yeah... so he was just checking up on my lip. whoot. ;] dad was all upset, cuz he hadn't seen it til just today. *pout* i'm not gonna get a girl now... my lip is all messed up. :'( xxx Wednesday, October 24, 2001 last night was good, but kind of disheartening as well. i went to phil's house cuz we were supposed to have a little get together - but what ended up happening was that both julie and joanne did a no-show, so it was just me and phil. we basically just watched tv together. and i have come to the conclusion that yes, watching tv is fun, but watching tv with someone else is even better! :D but... i came home from phil's house, and as i came upstairs i heard mom crying and sobbing in her room. i couldn't really do anything except kneel by her, put my arms around her, and hold her. she just kept saying, "God, i'm so tired... i'm so tired of this." she has been sick - brain tumor - for almost 4 years now. eversince she found out about her condition, she had the unswerving belief and trust that God would heal her. right now, she feels that God HAS already healed her... yet the physical manifestations of her tumor still remain - the bulging and blindness of her left eye. it was the first time that i've ever seen her so sad, and so weary of walking this path of faith. she even said that since we're all grown up, we don't really need her anymore. that she just asks God to bring caleb back to Him, and also to provide good godly wives for us. those words made me sad... cuz i do need her. she's my mom! :'( been messing with my webpage a little. frontpage2000 confuses the heck out of me. gosh... i so want to make it all nifty... but i seriously have no idea how to start. gah! well... another day another day. xxx Monday, October 15, 2001 ok. its been a while hasn't it? well... my excuse would be that our phone lines were down for the whole weekend... haha... but that wouldn't really be an excuse considering i had what... 2 weeks before that to write something. HAHA i'm a dork with no job and no girlfriend... what can i say! :D anyways, last friday was my last day on my temp job. so gone are the days where i am doing what i'm doing now, sittin' online, job hunting, chatting, and getting paid while doing all of that. so it is from WHOOO to BOOO. alas, i must be thankful to God for blessing me with that position for that long. they even took me out to lunch, a "farewell lunch"! sheesh! sooo... what's been going on with me. well... as i'm reading from my last entry, i told y'all about the state farm position. well, i turned that one down. i dunno... deciding whether to accept or decline that position was such a struggle for me. the pay was just so horrendous - i guess it was bad to me, cuz maybe i was prideful and thought i was worth much more. anywhoo, selling insurance at $13/hr. wasn't exactly something i wanted to do... but if i had accepted i'd probably be at the office right this moment filing away or doing some crap no one else there wanted to do. i wonder if i made the wrong decision, considering how hard it is these days to find a job. but i guess i'm going on faith... that God will provide something down the line, and provide for me for the time being. my weekend was grrreat. :) how was yours? saturday was basically a day all to myself. mom left early in the morning to some meeting she had with her bible study ladies. got up around 11:30ish. did my devotions, then picked up a package at the post office. caleb sent home some mooncakes - i guess for the chinese full moon celebration. it was weird - getting something like that from him... i envisioned us doing stuff like that later on in life when we're old. *shrug* it was a nice gesture overall. then i biked to the YMCA, worked out, and shot some hoops. then biked back. i've really been enjoying biking around lately. first of all, i'm riding my bro's $2000+ specialized stumpjumper. secondly, the weather here has been so incredibly nice. it is such a blessing, and i totally enjoy the weather here so much more than SD. i mean... SD weather is great too... but it is overcast and too misty at times, as a result of being so close to the ocean. then i came home, ate lunch, and watched the "four weddings and a funeral". it was a good comedy, never seen it, and i rented it from the library. so it was free! i thought it was a good movie, and i've come to realize that hugh grant plays all these love-sick-can't-get-the-girl-but-in-the-end-gets-the-girl kind of characters, just like in "notting hill". haha - i don't know why, but somehow i can really relate to him. maybe not the "in-the-end-gets-the-girl" part... but hey!... hopefully someday that will come about. then that night i headed over to phil's house - we bbqed, then sat around talked about college, and current life. joanne, samuel, julie, and vinny were also there. maaaaan... it was some good times. we really got some good conversation on dating, marriage, relationships in general, how we'd raise our kids, weird things we dislike about our cultures, etc. etc. i guess all those come with having no job and lots of time to think. (: sunday, went to church, came home, napped, watched football, went to oakland with nia and bro-in-law to visit grandmama, played mahjong with her, then went to jon's sister's place. had dinner there and got to play with jubilee and joseph. jubilee is 5 and she is so adorable! she showed me her sticker collection, her hello-kitty pencil boxes, pictures of her and her friends, and her favorite online games at nickjr.com. :D i was so happy to be there. she has always been a cutie, but i'd never get to see her since i was always at school. now she has a little brother, joey, who was just born 3 months ago. and nia is due next month! so these are exciting times... i really hope that i'll get to see all the babies lots and to be an important figure in their lives. anyways... time to teach mom how to AIM. *weird* she wants to be able to message caleb. kay byebye. xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |