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Thursday, February 28, 2002





doesn't lindie have some great expressions? mwaha... she makes me laugh! (:




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whatchu lookin at?!

last night was another night of frustration mixed with joy. no no... it wasn't because i was constipated and i finally got a couple turds out. :) it was wed.-night-babysit-zoe-girl-night. i moseyed on over to nia's place right after work. we were thinking that the more time i spend with her, especially with her mommie around, the more likely she is to be comfortable with me while her mommie was gone. as always... she was gurgling, happy, and content as any loved baby would be. :D zoe was actually very good compared to previous sittings... she played in her bed while watching her little twirly overhang thing for a while. she was fussy and trying to suck on her fingers... so i gave her a pacifier... and well... it 'pacified' her for a little bit. shoot that little munchkin has a lot of gas! *burp* she kept crying so i turned on the tv and we watched 'ed' together. she feel asleep sittin' on my lap... awwww... quality time with unkee. (: i put her in her crib, she woke up, but then fell back asleep until 9ish. she actually slept for an hour as opposed to none before! yay! :D by the time she woke up, her milk was already warmed and ready to go. yes - i am an experienced babysitter... i'm free mon/tues/thurs/fri/sat/sun nights... anyone need a sitter? (: anyways... this was probably where most of the frustration came in. she wouldn't take the bottle. "baby... if you're hungry, eat!" *suck suck for 2 sec.* "waaaaah... its not my mommie's nipple" :'(

shoot. we have it hard men. yes, even if we love babies... they most likely do not love is in return. sure, the times they're smiling and cooing... that could be seen as reciprocation of love. yet... when it comes down to it. we don't have a nipple to stick in their mouths. and all this goes back to my theory that women have all the power... shoot yo. all throughout a child's younger years... it is their mother who plays the most important role. of course... the man is usually off making the money to support the mother and the child, so there is less father/child interaction. but hey someone has to provide, eh? when i'm married and have kids... i want to be an integral part of their childhood. i want my love for them to reciprocated. yes, it will be nice when they're all grown up and i can be looked up to as their all-knowing, all-powerful, funny looking daddy. yet... it'd be nice to have the same intimacy a mother and child share. *shrug*... i guess i'll find out... :)

oh! wanted to plug my buddy eric's blogsite... i enjoy his writing immensely.





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Monday, February 25, 2002


vroom vroom!





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Sunday, February 24, 2002


yesterday and today... see the difference?



yesterday was a good day. i posted some ads up for my bike last week... got some replies... and one guy came to check it out in the morning. he was an elderly gentleman... very knowledgeable about bikes. he decided not to buy from me, for it was too heavy for him... but he said, "i'm old enough to be your father, so let me just give you some advice on selling your motorcycle." over the span of the next 30 mins, he pretty much told me how i could raise the value of it, how i should always keep a paper trail of all maintanence records, how to clean it, etc. etc. there is another guy who is pretty serious in buying it... but the bike is a little low for him, and he wants to know if i can raise the suspension. so i gotta take it in to a dealer to get it checked out. afternoon went well... hit up some weights... saw an old hs aquaintance - kind of got "re-aquainted" if you know what i mean. (: its so interesting seeing someone you haven't seen for 5 years... and learning what they've been up to and where they're "headed" in life.

i went on over to fremont around 4pm for little corrina's birthday party. she turned 6! she's one of my sister's friend's daughter. somehow she came to really like me (i wonder why!)... so i was one of her "old friends" that got an invitation. :D it was really fun! there was crafts, cookies, cupcakes, ice cream... and we had pizza and pisghetti for dindin! yay! don't you remember those good 'ol days? :o\ CRAP! that was a looooong time for me. xD the party consisted of a lot of running around... slapping my butt... *gasp/giggling* "i see your underwear!"... wrestling (yes little girls enjoy that too... shooot). makes me want to have kids of my own! haha... ohhhhh boy.

today was not a good day. i repeat ghostrider... NOT a good day. everything about today reminded me of linda. :*( the weather was perfect... the sun was shining bright. at church, instead of linda sitting on my left... it was an old lady. watching my mom put her hand into my dad's didn't help either. this entire sunday just somehow evoked feelings of loneliness... of needing her by my side. it was especially peculiar in the fact that this whole week since i've been back... i haven't missed her that much. i mean... i do miss her... but i also have more assurance in our relationship and our love for each other. does that make sense? then... all of a sudden... pam! i'm flooded with emotions men shouldn't have. dangit... *sigh* i guess i will go and try to "be strong" and to "take it like a man"...

olive juice berry mush linda




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Wednesday, February 20, 2002

finally got around to adding a link to oregon pics on the pics page! yay! i have too much free time on my hands! yay! :D




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*sigh* what an absolutely fabulous 4 day weekend! i hope that all of you had a great weekend of love... and plenty of rest as well. i just got back from LA yesterday... and what can i say... i actually wished this trip down south was permanent. (: not only did i spend quality time with leenda... wait... that's all i did! mwaha xD we had a pretty informal valentine's day... a dinner and a movie! my first 'dinner and a movie' actually... thank ya linda. we saw 'a walk to remember'... josh and linda give it two thumbs up! haha - we started reading the book together too. :) hrmm.. what else did we do... went down to san diego saturday morning... hung out with her parents some. sunday... went to church - it was very nice to see so many old faces... played some bball with some of the guys... had dinner with caleb. :D oh! i also saw my future party pad! duuude... it is quite nice. very big, spacious, and pretty much furnished... and only 10-15 mins away from work and about 20 to ucla! definitely a praise to God!

lets see... some things i learned over these past couple of days:
1. its not the things that you do that are important, but who you're doing those things with. (:
2. don't do anything that might even have a hint of 'disrespect' towards someone else's parents. :o\
3. love not only covers a multitude of sins... it also covers and encompasses so much more... :D




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Tuesday, February 12, 2002


a good thing to know when shopping with girls



dangit... i wrote a little blurb last night... but i clicked 'back' on the browser and it got deleted. pootie :(

anyways... i was writing about my experience at the YMCA. i went to the Y after work... pumped through my typical workout... then i headed to the gymnasium to shoot some hoops. but they had a 'y-boot camp' class in session. you know... one of those aerobic classes - usually older folks, not really in shape, lagging way behind the instructor? well, i joined the class mid-way through with the aw-no-sweat mentality. boy! was i wrong. in a way, its as far as you want to take it... but it sure was intense for me! my calves and quads are quite sore today. D: so! next time... join one of those classes before you jump to any conclusions! *beep* and that concludes this public service announcement... *beep* mwaha. xD

yay! two more days until i get to see linda. TWO! unreal yo.... :) what are YOU doing for valentine's day?




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Thursday, February 07, 2002


at work with mikey



"I blog you blog
we all blog weblogs"
- mr. jimmy liu


wow... its been a long time no? its crazy... yes, indeed... my life is respendent with craziness! it might not seem that way to anyone else... but it sure as heck is wonky for me. i suppose its one of those 'self-realization' times. first of all... i'm 22 years old. "gee whiz! you're that old josh?!" never did i see myself this "old"... somewhat "mature"... and somewhat "mentally stable". haha :D then... there's this whole out of college-out-in-the-working-world thing. i guess that snowballs in with the age thing. *shrug* THEN... the whole girlfriend thing. "josh?! you have a girlfriend? NEVA!" lol maybe its because i've envisioned these things so often as a little tike... but now they actually are?

soooo... to add on to even more craziness. last night, i was discussing my plans of moving down south with my parentals. "should i live in west LA and brave the traffic everyday... but be closer to linda and other friends? or should i live out in pasadena, where traffic is against the flow, but further away from people? should i sell the bike i have now and upgrade to a newer one? or should i sell it and buy a second-hand car?" - these were all questions i asked myself. so many unknowns... to me... but obviously things known to God. dad said to tell God my desires... to tell him what i want... but also to pray for obedience to wherever He may lead me. good advice eh? so, i will fo sho need to pray about it. it'd be nice if you helped too. (: anyways... i was going somewhere with this. :) i message michael ling on aim... he's 2 years older than me, went to ucsd as well, lives out in pasadena... and i ask him if he knows of anyone who is renting out a room or apt. he says, "you can take my spot! i'm moving to singapore!" so yeah... like i said... crazy. he's leaving march 11th to work in singapore... i'll be down the end of that month... and his roommate's parents and grandparents actually know my family from waaaay back! C-r-A-z-Y! so we'll see..........




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Sunday, February 03, 2002

uh... ok i see that some people voted for pasadena. but could you please leave a comment in the comment section as to why? this isn't a random poll... i REALLY want to know. :) shank you.




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new poll is up! i'm gonna be moving down to LA in about a month and a half for work! sooooo... just want to get a census on the best place to live... taking into considerations of freeways and traffic conditions. if you live in LA... please gimme some imput! leave a comment or something... like how long it takes from where to where, which direction has the most traffic at what time, etc, etc.! i'd greatly appreciate it! please keep in mind that lindie is at ucla! <-- that's a big factor! :D




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no weekend for josh. i had motorcycle training class both yesterday and today. the alarm and a honking car woke me up at 7 both days! *grr* that's pretty much what time i get up for work everyday... so like i said... no weekend for josh. boohoo :( but yay on getting my license! *vroom vroom* oh... no church for josh either. :( so i missed church this morning because of class... but abundant life usually has service at 5:30, so i WAS gonna go to that. i arrive at the church at 5:15 and there is absolutely NO ONE THERE. there was this guy sittin' in the parking lot... he said he was on the phone with one of the pastors... but there would be no service... he didn't know why... "the superbowl maybe? *shrug*"... i'm thinking the whole time... "what's up with that?! superbowl over church?!" i haven't gone to abudant life in a couple of weeks... so perhaps there was another reason. oh right... the superbowl.

iono... i've not been having much time for God lately. i'm not prioritizing my time well... the start of work is a big thing though. it means getting up early in the morning... and a start time of 8am doesn't exactly do my body justice. Dx i thought of getting up at 6:30 to do devotions... i mean i did it while in school... but it just gets so draining after a while. maybe i don't have enough faith in God giving me strength to endure through the day. =\ so, because i don't have time in the mornings... there were a couple of days when i'd set aside time for God right when i got home from work. but... sometimes i go to the gym directly after work... so that makes me forget. oy... i just feel so ugh about my walk. please pray for me yah?! thanks! :D

i was talking to eric specifically about it this past friday night. He's going to china for missions for an entire year starting in august. He's also taking a missions perspective class. And my mom is always telling me how much He loves God. i'm happy that eric is so ferverent about Christ, and for God leading Him to serve in China... but shoot... a lot of times i feel like i'm not "as good of a christian" compared to him. yes yes... i know God loves me for who i am and he doesn't play the comparison game or favorites... but i seem, to myself, just so unpassionate about Christ, the gospel, missions, etc. i feel as though my life has too much of my own agenda. does anyone else ever feel this way? *sigh*

oh yeah new email addy. click on 'email' for it...





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