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Friday, February 21, 2003
i love you... its that simple. xxx Tuesday, February 18, 2003 i suppose God is speaking to me mightily today... first in my reading of psalms 118: "give thanks to the Lord for he is good, his love endures forever..." and then today's utmost for his highest: "Taking the Initiative Against Despair In the Garden of Gethsemane, the disciples went to sleep when they should have stayed awake, and once they realized what they had done it produced despair. The sense of having done something irreversible tends to make us despair. We say, "Well, it’s all over and ruined now; what’s the point in trying anymore." If we think this kind of despair is an exception, we are mistaken. It is a very ordinary human experience. Whenever we realize we have not taken advantage of a magnificent opportunity, we are apt to sink into despair. But Jesus comes and lovingly says to us, in essence, "Sleep on now. That opportunity is lost forever and you can’t change that. But get up, and let’s go on to the next thing." In other words, let the past sleep, but let it sleep in the sweet embrace of Christ, and let us go on into the invincible future with Him. There will be experiences like this in each of our lives. We will have times of despair caused by real events in our lives, and we will be unable to lift ourselves out of them. The disciples, in this instance, had done a downright unthinkable thing—they had gone to sleep instead of watching with Jesus. But our Lord came to them taking the spiritual initiative against their despair and said, in effect, "Get up, and do the next thing." If we are inspired by God, what is the next thing? It is to trust Him absolutely and to pray on the basis of His redemption. Never let the sense of past failure defeat your next step." i need to keep on taking those next steps... trusting in him absolutely... xxx love is patient, love is kind... it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres... love never fails... - 1 corinthians 13:4,7-8 xxx my heart is in turmoil... xxx Friday, February 14, 2003 tonight was fun... first poker night with the guys in the apt. i lost $3.10... but isall good! i learned a lot about poker and how stupid i can get when there's money involved. hehe. lindie was so cute today... she looks like half of a wittle chipmunk, cuz only her left side is puffy from her wisdom tooth extraction. she is not feeling well - headache, teeth/gum-ache, mouth sore, weak from little food intake - so please pray for her. that she gets a good night's rest... that she is in less pain tomorrow. especially since its v-day! woowoo! also if she doesn't feel well she's not going to riverside with me... imma send her home with swan. yah... so i'm stoked about the bball tourney on saturday. playing in riverside with some old aacf buds in an all UC wide tournament. i hope i play well! dude its late... need to shower and hit the sack. praise for today: - bonding with my aptmates - grandma's successful operation (stomach cancer :\) - car went wacko on me, but thankgoodness it didn't breakdown on me - my cute girlfriend who makes me sooooo happy - a roof and a warm bed i am about to enjoy g'night! :P xxx Wednesday, February 12, 2003 i am slob. i am fat. i eat ice cream. i watch tv for trees hours. yes... those 4 simple statements described my monday night. according to my *finger quote* schedule *finger quote*... i'm supposed to workout monday/wednesday at wooden. alas, i did not go on monday. i had no motivation for some reason. henry: "here's your motivation!" *lifts up shirt and pats beer belly*. mwahaha... but even that didn't do it for me. *sigh* :| anyways... joe millionaire and miracles were really really interesting. joe millionaire basically was a teaser for the final episode... recapping all of evan's past dates with sarah and zora. dude... sarah is so fake! especially when she's with zora... dude... that smile is soooo fake and evil. i sure hope he doesn't pick her. yet on the other hand... his dates with zora have been BLAH. sometimes up, sometimes down... either she's playing with his emotions (which i see no point in doing) or just playing it cool. i think zora is just uber conservative. *shrug* miracles was... eerie. its engaging tho because it goes beyond the natural into the supernatural - demons, possesions, angels - all that. and its showing it in a, i guess, tangible vivid way. you know what i mean? we can imagine those things... but when our imagination is kind of "portrayed"... that's how miracles is. yesterday... got off of work early. took linda in to get her bottom wisdom teeth out. sheesh! she's had a good wisdom teeth experience. she didn't need to be put under and they finished in like 30 mins. not too much chubby bunny either... much to my chagrin. :( basically just pampered her and took care of her the rest of the evening. ooOoO... i cooked last night! yaaaay! this zesty chicken dish and mabo tofu. YUM! huy just came home from school so i invited him to dine with me. yumilicious. :D then i had an IM bball game. we won! finally... now we're 1-2. we need to win our last game and come out with a .500 record to make playoffs. we played good defense, and hardly turned the ball over. i'm really excited for this weekend tho... aacf bball tourney! random thoughts of today: - driving to work sucks - driving to work in the rain sucks - having to go to work sucks - having to go to work rather than snuggling in my warm blankies on a rainy day sucks. - God is still good! xD click me! and me! xxx Monday, February 10, 2003 oh my! this just came to mind... j. lo too! cuz her fiance benben was there! OMG!!!!!! *gasp* xxx oh dude! one more thing! dare devil premier was in westwood last night! i was on my way to church... but i SOOOOO could have seen and schmoozed and hugged and kissed and gotten my picture taken with jennifer garner! HOT *sizzle* HOT! oy mammieee... xxx i learned a lot over this past weekend. i learned that i am still so utterly human and weak in my fleshly/earthly desires... that the struggle in choosing my own way rather than God's way will always be an unending one. I learned that i hold on to things even though i pride myself on being one that forgives and forgets easily. somehow... even so... the things lingering in the back of my mind... my consciousness... rears its ugly head when pushed and prodded the right way. i learned that i still don't love my Lord or my girlfriend enough. i learned that i am hot-headed... especially in doing things... because i do most things semi-well... and that it can get me in trouble. this relates specifically to riding up in the canyons this past saturday - i pushed it a little too hard, tried to do too much, almost ate it. :\ praise God for his protection. i learned that good brothers in Christ are always hard to come by... and i'm glad i know and have the brothers that i do. i learned that i need to inspect my life and clear the clutter in my heart that is taking up God's room. i learned that one of my goals in life is to own a costco! haha. i mean... it is definitely a profit making business... and on top of that (if i indeed come to own one), the family will be well provided for! :D angeles crest 2-07-03 muholland 2-08-03 pics xxx Wednesday, February 05, 2003 whoo hoo! third post of the day! i'm on a roll baby! had an IM bball game... the refs SUCKED! man... IM sports is here is nothing compared to ucsd baybee! uh uh! SD representin'! (: anyways... wanted to alert you all to the new links to the right. they are motorcycle links that i frequent... also a G35 forum. hoping to purchase one end of summer/early fall. also... added some motorcycle pics! check out my schweet ride! also... been playing this game a lot. click here! yay for bloggies! :D xxx i remember back in the day... i'd ALWAYS blog about her. i'd gush about what we did, where we went, how we felt about each other. i miss doing that. :D who is 'her' you might ask? she is who i like to call my lone bright star in the dark night sky (heheheh josh you're cheesy!) - my best friend... my beautiful princess... linda. =-D things have been going so well... and i am utterly blissful to be boyfriend to such an exhuberant, glowing, crazy-fun girl that is my girlfriend. seems like we are both less moody this year around (hoorah!)... and things are more stable. we've come to grips with each other's flaws - i.e. me forgetting everything everywhere i go, etc. haha - which reminds me of tiwa saying something about always trying to find caleb's keys/cellphone for him. we communicate like nobody's business. i've learned to be more patient in hearing what's going on in her head - i'm not having a cow when she won't tell me what's going on right then and there. i like how she is more patient with me as well... how sometimes i'll do/say things without thinking towards her or others... (if i want it, i'm not ashamed to ask for it... very vocal i am, yes) and she'll pull me aside and tell me how to approach it more thoughtful and in the interest of others next time. i love our relationship! :D i know we are both working on becoming better people for each other, and to others. its also been easier trying to be a godly man in the relationship... its like once you start obeying His commands, you just get the ball rolling, and its only smooth sailing from there. i know that God sees that and is blessing our relationship because of it. i continue to pray for linda's faith... and can only be patient in His timing. haha... sorry for the long rant... i guess its that time of the year... valentine's! haha :] aside from that... mom is recoverying well. her, dad, and caleb arrived back in san francisco from houston this morning. she is still somewhat weak, and her blood still needs to thicken up some. i will be going home in 2 weekends to visit her and the rest of the family. yay! (: God has answered a prayer of mine as of late. that being... finding another brother, outside of the christian circle i know, to fellowship/minister with. last week i went up to angeles crest for a ride in the canyons with another guy. turns out he's a brother passionate for the Lord and passionate about motorcycles. it was soooo encouraging to me... and i've already seen God begin to work... intertwining our lives. we're praying for a ministry to stem out of all of this. :D zoe is getting big... so i hear. i miss my niece. :*-( she started walking two thursdays ago! nia said whenever she stands up on her own, she'll raise her hands up and go 'yay!' awwww... soo cute. also... she likes to look at the hawaii pictures i have on my webpage. she really really loves linda. haha - she'll always make this 'hmmm?' sound that linda made while playing with her, and she'd scrunch her nose up like linda does. one day, nia also got out the dole pineapple shirt we all got... she put it on and wouldn't take it off. :P awww... i can't wait to go home now! sorry so long... i haven't blogged in forever! xxx yay! my webpage works again!!!! xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |