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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
i've pretty much been down and out lately. lots of stuff going on in my head... most of it, revolving on all the uncertainties of my life. i've felt lost... alone... stranded on an island. i know that i'm yearning for connections, fellowship, and support. God blessed me with some of that yesterday... through my sister julie and my brother adrian. i long for old friends, old aquaintances, familiarity... yet none of those are near. i'm looking forward to thursday... meeting new people and perhaps making new connections. xxx Friday, May 16, 2003 LA friday traffic SUCKS! i swear it starts at noon or something... took me 40 mins. to get home on my bike. yes! lane splitting and all! *sigh* this week is finally over............ God... please provide me a new job. please? pretty please? pretty please with a cherry on top?! xxx Monday, May 12, 2003 whoo hoo! what an awesome friday! i had so much fun at my track school day. i didn't learn a lot of new instruction... but i definitely learned a lot more about my bike, how i ride, and what a blast track riding is! saturday i just went down to san diego and stayed with the chao family. it was mrs. chao's birthday, and then sunday was mother's day. happy mother's day to all the mom's out there! my mom was in vancouver so i didn't get to see her or do anything for her. :( i ate so much this weekend. if food = love... the chao family definitely gives an abundance of it! :D here are some pictures from the track: alex loading up the bikes: 
yummy yamaha R6's: 
arriving at the track!: 
unloading: 
(f)tom, eric (b)me, steve, alex, jim 
getting lectured for passing on the inside... jk! just getting a few pointers 
doobiedoobiedoo 
railin'... 
bikes 
bikes and owners 
front tire 
rear tire 
silly grin on scraping pucks 
left puck 
right puck 
king of the track! 
xxx Tuesday, May 06, 2003 i'm so tired of this. i'm so tired of always being the one looking out for others... asking them how they're doing, what's going on with their lives, what's going on with THEM. i hate it. i hate how i'm always the one trying to connect to people... to get thoughts out of them... to probe their mind. not many people do that for me. i may be dying to share things... i may be in pain. but no one knows, cuz no one asks... maybe no one really cares. am i the only one that cares out there? sure... some people may want to know me every now and then... maybe once every month... maybe whenever they feel like it. but hell... what if i'm not around when they think of me? will they regret it? i'm so tired of making decisions. for me... for other people... how nice would it be to live life indifferently... to have everything decided for me. wow... i can just be a slacker my whole life. but its not like that. i have to make decisions. i'm on my own... every decision i make affects me. perhaps that is the biggest difference in my life right now. no one really takes care of me but myself and God. maybe those two are the only people that give a damn as well. i think i just need a friend. a good one. xxx Monday, May 05, 2003 this past weekend was great. it was nice to get away from all of this LA stuff. i hate LA! the smog... my job... yadayada. haha... i'm still thankful. don't mind me. :D :D anyways... i was away for the weekend up in stockton for a wedding. linda's aunt got married. shoot... the wedding ceremony was the most unorganized thing i have ever seen. but i think they're used to more traditional cambodian weddings, so perhaps that was the case. the entire weekend and from some conversations made me realize how blessed i'm am with the family/extended family that i do have. and it is all because of God that we don't let small and petty things get in the way of the greater family. i can't wait to have a loving, tight-knit, God-centered family of my own! anyways it was nice to get away... to chow on some wedding banquet food... to boogie some on the dance floor... we got back around noonish sunday. pretty much slept the entire afternoon away. went to worship at mosaic at 6. eug... you really got to come check it out! i was so happy, joyful, blessed and refreshed by the service. its been a while since i've felt the way i did - felt the message impact me, felt people genuinely passionate about worship, felt at... home. :) now i'm looking for a small group to meet with. God's been blessing me with something else... my friend huy. he lives in the apt. next to mine and we're all pretty much friends. but he's been struggling and down a lot lately - with school, family, life, future plans, etc. i got to pray for him the other day and he's been coming to mosaic with linda and i these past 2 weeks. i know God is speaking to him, and i hope that He continues to use me in a positive way in huy's life. if you think of me, think of huy! hey that rhymes! please pray for him... thanks. xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |