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Thursday, June 26, 2003
i haven't blogged in ages! sorry. i've been really consumed with work. but consumed in a good way. i love my new job! i'm out everyday visiting people... making money... being challenged... and maintaining a good attitude. i'm doing sales for sbc... but it has a bigger picture - becoming a manager in a year. i suppose it is analogous to the christian walk. we're exactly where we need to be now... but the big picture is that one day we'll be in heaven, and therefore that's exactly what we're working towards. because of my long work days... i practically don't spend much time reading the word at all. but my buddy steve gave me a good suggestion - to read a passage or two, and then just go over it over and over again in my head while i'm driving or pounding the pavement. the things that have stuck with me these past couple of days: "... i long for your mercy oh Lord, more than watchmen long for the morning..." and "... give thanks to the Lord, for He is good... His love endures forever..." and lastly "... i will praise you oh Lord with all my heart, before the 'gods' i will praise you..." :) life has been beautiful. mostly because of my attitude. its funny how both linda and i always talk about perspective, and FISH (story about boston fish market workers who maintain their attitudes) and making the most of what we have... and its so true! before... those things were said, but never really internalized. with this job... i'm forced to internalize it... because i can't let one "no" get me down... i have to upkeep my 'tude and keep on trucking... :-P xxx Thursday, June 12, 2003 today was just one of those great days that i've been waiting for. work was decent... closed a couple of deals... made some money. starting to become more excited about this job opportunity. after work... helped linda move some stuff into her apartment... then went to hurry curry, got some take-out. dinner with linda made my day complete! :D the food was great. it was just the two of us... sitting in a messy apartment... enjoying the food... her clucking and me mooing (she got chicken and i got beef!)... grinning sillily at each other... and eating til our (now big) tummies stuck out. although work now takes up a bigger portion of daily life... the little time spent with linda was the best part of my day. (: (: (: God is good all the time! xxx Tuesday, June 10, 2003 you know when there's a huge group of people and some thing or another is about to start? everyone is just jibberjabbering and going on... talking, blabing, gesticulating, etc... all while a couple people are trying to quiet everyone else down. there's always this one guy that yells, "hey! shut the f!@*# up!" it always cracks me up when the guy yells that, because he's basically adding to all the noise and clamor. i've always wanted to be that guy. xxx Sunday, June 08, 2003 there's been so much change in my life lately... i don't know how to feel... what to say. some changes have been good - such as quitting the job i had absolutely no desire to work at this past friday... starting my new job tomorrow. i am nervous, yet excited at the same time... scared since it is commission based and i have big credit card bills this month - this much i know. even more so, i know God will provide and guide. my mind is telling me what a cliched thing to say... yet deep in my heart i know it to be true. i feel my mind as of late has been jaded by this world. i've become more and more like this world... yet at the same time i do not belong at all. i overslept today... and i didn't go to church. i strive and i hope in God, in His promises... but i don't seem to know how to deny myself and take up my cross daily and follow Him anymore. it has become hard, a struggle i want to throw into the depths of my closet and forget about. i cannot. everything i am, everything that has made me... won't allow me to do so. and thus i hang in a space void of emotion, forgetful of the joy to be had in the Lord, draining of remaining hope... i don't know anymore... pray for me... anyways... some pics from memorial day weekend for you to enjoy... friday, monday saturday sunday xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |