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Thursday, September 30, 2004
holy CRAP! check out what my friend laura and i discovered upon returning to my humble abode! MAN! the intricacy... the delicate yet strongly built web... the *goosebump* nastiness! OMG! 
 xxx Thursday, September 23, 2004 At times life is wicked and I just can’t see the light A silver lining sometimes isn’t enough To make some wrongs seem right Whatever life brings I’ve been through everything And now I’m on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don’t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away…away At times life’s unfair and you know it’s plain to see Hey God I know I’m just a dot in this world Have you forgot about me? Whatever life brings I’ve been through everything And now I’m on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain and forget the sorrows But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don’t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away…away Am I hiding in the shadows? Are we hiding in the shadows? don't stop dancing - creed weahered cd xxx Monday, September 20, 2004 is this not a thing of beauty?!  xxx idea is off of peter's page: ad libs: when i am lonely, i think about _________. (and yes, feel free to fill it in in the comments section) xxx Saturday, September 18, 2004 quick update!: 1. i've been staying up til 2am every morning playing online poker. o.O 2. its free its free! what's free? my in-grown nipple hair is free! oh man... was that the best day or what. 3. i had a loan signing on thursday night... looks like i'm gonna have some money to pay my bills. :/ 4. been hitting the gym big time. haven't missed a day this week. gonna post up before and after pics very very soon. (: 5. girls, relationships, and wearing your heart on your sleeve is overrated. 6. pho cadao has the best vietnamese food ever mang! got a bbq beef plate, spring rolls, AND a thai iced tea with boba for $11. i chose that over spending $10 and watching 'sky captain of tomorrow or whatever the name is' tonight. 7. been going surfing on the weekends. always borrowing people's boards. if you know of a good deal somewhere (i'm looking for a 7'-7'2" board)... please let me know. 8. http://www.FreeFlatScreens.com/default.aspx?referer=7479261 sign up, complete a frickin' offer, or don't visit my webpage again! >:-O ok bye. xxx Saturday, September 11, 2004 what a hot lazy day. i need to get out and do something. woke up at 9:30, read some, folded my laundry, been on the comp, cleaned up room... lets see what the rest of the day has to offer..... ok this video is just freakin' awesome. i like it cuz it shows the potential of us chinese people. no no no... we are not pale, pasty, effeminate men anymore. we can now break your ankles and posterize your ass. right click and save as please. http://myweb.hinet.net/home8/o329pgkv/down/sbl_dunks.wmv xxx Wednesday, September 08, 2004 ok i've had a crappy ass day. but these videos made me laugh. http://www.nbc.com/nbc/The_Tonight_Show_with_Jay_Leno/jaywalking/index.shtml xxx i hate how i'm feeling right now. i feel defeated, i feel weak, i feel like i can't get it done. BUT... i know i can, it just hasn't come to fruition yet. i hate the feeling of having to rely on other people other than myself. yes, i know i can't do it all on my own, and that i should let God help me carry those burdens... but FREAKIN' A! there comes a point in a young man's life when he just wants to stand on his own two feet. right now, it seems like i just can't get it to happen... and secondly i have to rely (somewhat) on people to get where i want to be. that's the disappointing part. people. i know i shouldn't have any expectations. but freak, i'm human. and so are you... so shutup. the biggest thing is, some people... just... don't... get it. they can't even be normal, courteous, polite, self-less people. they're just stupid. and you can't educate them about it either, because they brush it off, are too stubborn to hear any of it, or, as i've already stated - they're just stupid. for those of you that get it, give me a ring. we can whine and mope about those that don't. FREAK. oh, and i'm ready for another vacation. care to come with? xxx track pics courtesy of sean john. 
 xxx Friday, September 03, 2004 just a little excerpt from an email i got from my sis, forwarded via my mom, sharing about lil zoe: "...Last Sunday I was teaching her sunday school class and we sang 'I've got peace like a river' and Jonathan told me that she was on the toilet one day and she sang, 'I got peas in my river, I got peas in my river, I got peas in my river in my socks' haha. i guess when we do hand motions to the word 'soul' we usually point to our 'soles' (similar sound) so that's probably where she got mixed up with 'socks'." ain't she a cutie?! smart too! she's two, turning three in november, and she knows what soles are! man... this week was long and frustrating. i don't know what it is with work. lately its just been... welp... long and frustrating! i don't feel like i'm performing like i'm capable of. i know its all mental, i simply cannot get out of this mental rut. its hard too... because i compare - compare myself to others (i.e. - the new kid that started a month after me and has more loans than i do), what we as humans naturally do. God i entrust my frustrations... my hopes, my dreams, my life to you. help me to let go more and more each day... so i got off work early today because i'm going to the track tomorrow! i totally need this. i'm so ready to leave for a weekend, for a week, for a month, for a year ...somewhere! anywhere! just need to see new scenery, new sights, new sounds. *sigh* the afternoon has been good. picked up my battery at buymoto and got it in the bike. schweet - no more bump starting with that crappy yamaha battery. :D the bike is so clean now... seems i only wash and make it nice before a track day. hopefully its still clean when i come back... meaning i didn't dump it in the dirt or something. :\ *knock on wood* wait... screw that. God keep me safe please. thanks dude, you're tight. 
since then... i've just been reading blogs. its so amazing how you get to know so many people in your lifetime. whats even more amazing is how those people have xanga's that connect to more people you know that have xanga's, etc. etc. just from reading xanga's this afternoon... i found out someone is living in maryland now, someone just had a baby girl, and disneyland is indeed the happiest place on earth. i think the happiest place would be in heaven... where all the people i know and love are in one place. *sigh* *twiddles thumbs* waiting on my ride to the track. he's still putting his bike together as i type. i love people. they're great. even tho he's lagging, yes, i still love him. if you want to chill, lemme know, i want to chill with you too. have a dope labor day weekend everyone! xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |