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Thursday, October 28, 2004
got new hellllmet, got a new helllllmet. *dances a jig* i guess now it somewhat matches my bike. *rolls eyes*  xxx Monday, October 25, 2004 some pictures from the weekend
xxx Wednesday, October 20, 2004 out of control i feel out of control. not me, myself, personally. but everything else. if you think about it, you pretty much have no control over anything but yourself. and even then, for some of you, you still have no control over your bodily functions. damnit, i told you to get some depends! i can’t control who i love and how i feel. i can’t control if love is returned or not. i can’t control lenders who quote me one interest rate and then turn around and dick me with a higher one. i can’t control the rain, getting home late last night, having to park in guest parking, and therefore getting soaked just trying to get to my car this morning. i can’t control the shuffle on my ipod. i can’t control how big my muscles have grown. i can’t control a lot of things. some i wish i could, but a lot i could care less about. if you think this is a whiney post. its not meant to be. just a realization. good thing i have decent control over my thoughts and my fingers, otherwise you would be reading gibberish such as this (*&#(*^%Y#NL(P*&P. funny thing is, this is the second time i’m typing this. i sure as hell had no control over blogger.com starting maintenance at 6pm pst EXACTLY as i hit the post button. great. so this is a re-post post. i think the first one was better. alas, this is what you get. don’t complain. cuz holy crap! you have no control over what i post! haha “everything will be alright in the end. and if it isn’t, its not the end yet.” xxx Monday, October 18, 2004 white ninja's armpit pants 
haha! white ninja is tiiiiight. you can find more of white ninja at http://www.whiteninjacomics.com xxx Monday, October 11, 2004 weekend was good. saw some friends up in LA for the first time in a long while. haven't been back up there since i moved to san diego, which was oh... 6 months ago. all in all, it was a relaxing weekend. sad thing was i felt like an estraged family member. funny way to put it, but true. everything was so comfortable, so familiar, yet not. everyone seemed to be the same - but 6 months definitely changes much. i miss how it used to be. i'd give my left nut (or right, whichever you prefer) for it to go back to the way it was. alas, even if i feel the same, its been a long ass time, and how i feel doesn't mean jack squat. yes, this is a vague post. xxx happy birthday linda chao! yes, you are that special to have your very own birthday post. :D  xxx Thursday, October 07, 2004 finally got paid last friday. rolled around on my bed with my one paycheck. oh man it was sexy i tell you. its nice to have money. took my brother and his roommate out to dinner. also bought some essentials over the weekend - boxers (elastic bands were gettin' loose on half of them), case to protect my ipod, pair of much needed jeans, groceries for the week (lots of fruit!), and protein powder. also got to pay bills and rent on time too. awesome. it feels good to finally be rewarded after working so hard and long without pay. been talking to mom a lot on the phone lately. she's sick today, i hope you get better soon mom. she caught a cold after taking zoe and ian out to the park. i don't know what's different, but somehow i'm more patient with her and i listen to her even repeat things to me for the nth time without getting upset or annoyed. maybe i simply miss her affection, or any womanly affection for that matter. haha. i've learned something about relationships lately. or perhaps i've known it all along, but only recently has it become clear. i've learned you need to give first to get back in return. not to simply give to expect, but to give freely, fully, and as often as possible. i've seen a drastic difference in the relationships i have at work. a simple compliment here, a high-five there... a smile here, an offering of orange wedges there... makes a difference. i want to make a difference. now i must remember that. i was asked recently what else i do outside of work and working out. the underlying question was, "what keeps you going?" i didn't have an answer for a second there... because lately i have been living for ME. hmmm what time do i want to wake up today. what do i want to eat? what do i want to do today? what do i want to accomplish? its hard not to focus on me. not that self-introspection and improvement is bad. and focusing on ME can definitely keep you going. either way life moves on. but my final answer to that question was, "trying to find God's plan for me, and then living it." i don't think i can honestly say i'm living for God anymore. i want to. just need to know what/where/when... i suppose a good place to start is outside of ME. xxx Sunday, October 03, 2004 1. johnny walker 18 year old gold label scotch - $80 2. home-made chili, cheese and spinach dip, chicken wings, beer-battered sausage - $30 3. cigars - $21 4. playing poker with co-workers and taking home $50 - PRICELESS  xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |
