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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
sneeze - by joshua chiu sudden pressure building up ugly facials squinted eyes 'ahchoo' is the sound rhymes with my last name wet it is snotty it can be out into the air particles floating about if on the hand gots quite a smell why do we sneeze? whats it all about? from inside to out why through the mouth? its a wonderous thing so satisfactory yes, the 'sneeze' for some it is pure ecstacy the end xxx i find that i fall into these self-created anti-social moods at times. people will call me up to do something, i'll commit, and then i'll change my mind and not go. in the meantime, i will sit at home and watch tv and be bored. i hate it when i do that. i think it becomes a cycle too, because then people stop calling you up to kick it, and then you're just stuck in a rut. i kind of see it like going to the gym. there are those days when you're just a lazy bastard and you don't want to go. but you will yourself to go anyways. and it never fails, when you're done with your workout, you're glad you went. i think its the same with hanging out with friends. in the end, you will always have had some good times, good food, and great company. (: xxx Thursday, April 21, 2005 i realized something tonight while walking from the gym to my car. the gym is... empowering. empowering, how?... you may ask. well it is one of the few places where you are in absolute control. well, maybe not absolute. but in more control than most situations. now you may beg to differ with me, but let me explain. in our everyday lives... we can control where we go, how fast we drive, how hard we work, what we eat, who we talk to, who we love. yet we are OUT in the world... with pressures all around giving or taking amounts of control from us. for example. you can drive your car onto the 405 freeway... but you're lucky if you travel a mile in less than 30 mins. oh lets do another! this is a good one. *thinks to self* "gosh i feel like a tub of lard today... i'm going to eat a salad." co-worker pips up, "hey lets go get double-doubles from in-n-out!" "um, ok." the gym is like a containment chamber. there's nothing that can get to you in there. you decide how many MPH you're going to run on the treadmill. you decide how many reps and how heavy you're going to lift. you decide if you're going to wink at the cute girl who's watching you curl 100lbs. ok, not the last one. but do you get what i'm saying? its pretty much you and the weights. you and the stairmaster. you and the crunch ball. and the best thing about it... is while you're working out, you zone out and your mind is free from all the crap that normally goes on in your head. yes, i believe its true... the gym is a good place to get away from the crazy chaos that is our daily lives. hmmmm... maybe thats why some people go so much! (: oh i've forgotten to do these in a while! i love: 1. one tree hill. yes, call me cheesy or a girl... but its good drama! 2. basketball with strangers. you start out that way, but as the game progresses, you learn their names, you learn where they like the ball, and when you give each other hand-slaps for a good shot... you're strangers no more. :D 3. sam woo's. one 2 item combo is $4. but it can basically feed you for 2 meals. greeeeasy... but yuuuuummy. :P xxx Tuesday, April 19, 2005 i don't understand it... i really don't. it seems most people i come into contact to are scared to open themselves up. for guys - is it what society has ingrained in us... that we must always front this manly-never-talk-about-our-feelings facade? for girls - because you may have been hurt before, do you feel that you will always get hurt by opening up again? i suppose i have this dilemma because i am... open. sometimes overly so. people seem to shy away when talk comes to who they really are, the core of their being, the things that make them... them. i don't understand it... i really don't. i believe that connecting with someone has to be one of the most wonderful things we as human beings can do. the strongest bonds of friendship... of human-ness... are created in tragedies, wars, common causes, and memorable events. my question is... why wait for those moments? why not allow yourself to be open and vulnerable simply for the sake of making a connection, now? i don't understand it... i really don't. i long for this. i yearn for this. i make efforts to open myself to others... yet, it doesn't seem anyone is willing or able to reciprocate the same. am i the only one? am i the only who's not afraid? sometimes, just being me... is... so... hard... xxx Monday, April 18, 2005  petco! padres vs. giants!  pretty pretty field  fob in america  all three of them were rooting for the giants... haters! ha! look who won tho! (: so i got the opportunity to go to petco park for the first time with et, steph, and boaz. and to top it off, the padres were playing with my hometown boys, the giants. it was drizzling when we got there, so it was quite cold through the first 5 innings or so. then with the stop of the rain, came the start of some action! padres and giants each scored 1 each in the 6th inning. 7th inning came and the padres rolled off 5 runs! AWESOME! padres won it 7-2. this has been the first sporting event i've been to, in a long time, where the home team has given its fans something to cheer about! looking forward to doing it again. :D sidenote: i just noticed... man, i'm really tall. :\ xxx "seein' red" - unwritten law I'm seein red Don't think you'll have to see my face again Don't have much time for sympathy Cause it never happened to me You're feelin blue now I think you bit off more than you could chew And now it's time to make a choice And all I wanna hear is your... So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe thats when you will know Follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe that's when you will know And foolish lies Well can't you see I tried to compromise Cause what you say ain't always true And I can see the tears in your eyes And what you said now Can't stop the words from running through my head And what I do to get through to you But you'd only do it again So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe that's when you will know Follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe that's when you will know Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess Don't have much time for sympathy But it never happened to me You're feelin down now I don't know where I'll be when you come around And now it's time to make a choice And all I wanna hear is your voice... xxx Thursday, April 14, 2005  emergency room visit: $541.46 stitches: $411.45 dental work: $445 peridontist: $85 braces: $730 getting my smile back: priceless oh, and i'm thinking of going to costa rica. plane tickets are REAAAAAALLY cheap right now. looking at approximately $200-$250 roundtrip. if you're interested in seeing a new culture, eating some good eats, and surfing some costa rican waves... holla atcha boy! xxx Sunday, April 10, 2005  clippers vs. spurs! my weekend was quite full of activities! saturday... woke up earlier than i wanted to, only to be the earliest person at said destination and arrival time of 10 o'clock am. LAGGERS! headed up to lee's cycle with sean, mikey, bill, and stroble for their annual dyno shootout. this involves putting our bikes on this machine and finding out how much rear wheel horse power our bike has. um, mine only dynoed at 89hp. how wussy is that?! i even have a slip-on and a jet kit! i should be putting close to 100hp. :/ i think something is wrong, might bring it in, but no money right now. sean's gsxr600 came in at 106hp, bill's kawi636 at 109hp, and stroble's orange dragon kawi10r at a whoppin' 161hp. scary man. anyways, that prompted me to just say "screw this! i'm selling this piece of crap, lets go bike shopping." so we all rolled over to fun bike to see if they had any kawi6rr's in stock. didn't have any, but should have a shipment in a couple of weeks. woot! was invited to a clippers game at the staples center by vanessa. her choir kids were performing before the game and she had a bunch of extra tickets. a lot of people who supposedly were going to show up didn't... so she paid outta pocket for those tickets, so she was out like $1000! :( so i tried to scalp some of em. but dude... there were these freakin' black dudes working the crap out of the corner and i was like, um, forget this. so we ended up giving a lot of them away for free. some people were so grateful! it felt so warm and fuzzy giving away "free" tickets... paid for by vanessa. hahaha. i mean, sorry vasey. :/ anyways, in the process of handing out "free" tickets i saw an old ucsd friend, fleming! we gave him a free ticket just to get into the door, but then he had a vip suite through his company, so he invited us up! the seats were AWESOME! definitely the best place to view a game. exciting game... 2 OT's, and manu ginobilli has mad game! good times hollering it up with vanessa and ingrid! my favorite quotes of the night were: "can you diiiiiiiiiig it?!?!" "we've been with you guys through 2 overtimes already, don't you freakin' lose now!" "*clippers girls start performing* this is the reason why i came tonight!" LOL :D :D prior to arriving in los angeles, i made a quick stop in irvine. swan and linda were playing in a bball tourney. didn't get to see them ball it up, but was definitely good playing some speed scrabble and hanging out with them. :D today - ambled over to stroble's place for some motogp action. it was some good racing, good food (cheese dip, tostitos w/ lime, ruffles with ridges, oreos, pizza, beers... mmmm), and good company. afterwards, weather was perfect, so took a long run, then just trekked down to la jolla shores to catch some rays and read. tv, cleaning and studies made up the rest of my night. man... i liiiiiive for weekends. i love: 1. mariah carey's new song, 'we belong together'. 2. solitude. when its no longer loneliness... but rather my alone time. to do what i love, to do what makes me happy, to be content. 3. learning new things about myself. i know we often say how much life amazes us, but more often than not, we overlook the mere fact of how amazing we are as individuals. i have yet to learn all about myself, and perhaps, i never will. but thats the beauty of it. :) xxx Friday, April 08, 2005 jock. what does that word mean to you? the dictionary defines it as an athlete or an athletic supporter. but i think more commonly you can find its usage as such: "dude, you're mad jocking her!" or "i'd totally jock that guy". my impression of the term is basically spending a lot of time, effort, and energy into spending time/getting to know a certain guy/girl. now this term was brought to my attention when a friend told me that i got 'mad jocked' in college. not quite understanding that statement or said term in question, i asked her what it meant. to put it bluntly, she said it was equal to "wanting to get laid", or as guys would put it "i'd tap that ass!". so... i proceeded to ask for a couple more opinions on the matter. one response was "it means that you were flirting with her and pretty much wanted to get busy with her". another was simply "hitting on her(or him, for you female readers)". but even so, i still do not feel like i have a full understanding of the term. i suppose it is just like the whole oh-we're-dating-not-really-together-maybe-we-are-i'm-not-sure thing - its one of those ambiguous terms that can mean many and all things. in conclusion: i know this is a family-friendly blog page and all... so please do me a favor... use what we've learned today (wait, did we learn anything?) to educate your children so that when they are 26 years old, it is not something they still question. i love: 1. clean sheets. for some reason, i sleep the best after they've been washed. maybe its cuz they're clean? haha. i think its the whole softner, clean, out-of-the-dryer feeling... yes, thats it. 2. colored and stylish boxers. i feel sexy whenever i wear them. 3. meals with friends. it doesn't matter where you're eating or what you're eating. the only thing that matters is in the end: you've had lots of good laughs, you want to share another meal with the same people again, and you just want to go home and sleep. :D xxx Wednesday, April 06, 2005 i felt honored today. my friend's cousin, who is a senior in high school, asked for my opinion on which prom dress to buy. she said i was hip, and therefore asked me for my advice! haha -_- anyways, it just brought back a lot of memories of past proms... seemed they were just yesterday, but actually many many many years ago. :D it also made me feel like a dad. i suppose this is what i'll feel like when my daughter asks me which dress i like. i will probably say none of them (they're all too revealing!), and also, but hopefully not, tell her to go find a dress at jcpenny! haha. yes, i am still constantly amazed that i am already 26 years old. i suppose this fascination of knowing that i'm aging will forever be an ongoing thing. (: i love: 1. hot scorching days. because the nights are usually oh-so-clear, full of stars, and PERFECT for a walk with someone special. :) 2. clear pee. i know i've done my body good by keeping it well hydrated! 3. costco. i can feed myself for about 2 weeks on $50 worth of food. heck yes. oh yeah, i plan to own one one day. and yes, you may work in my pizza kitchen if you'd like. xxx Tuesday, April 05, 2005 my friend mary does this, and i was further prompted to follow suit by my buddy vinh. i love: 1. reading while listening to music. i don't do it often, but everytime i come back to it, i realize how much i miss it. 2. guy talk. we trash talk, cuss and swear, talk about sports... but when it all comes down, we're just little boys who still need their mamas. 3. routine. what we do as unique individuals, day in and day out, really do make up who we are. xxx Saturday, April 02, 2005 its been a while since i've updated. thank you to all of you who made my birthday weekend so fantabulous. i definitely felt loved! had a great time at dave & busters saturday night. thank you for those who made the long trek from LA to celebrate with me. much love to you all. sunday, ingrid and vanessa came down just to take me out for my new foray into the late twenties. they took me to tadashi for all you can eat sushi, then off to extraordinary desserts! yum! first time there. if you have a date, that's a good place to take em. (: here are some pics.     lifehouse - you and me what day is it? And in what month? this clock never seemed so alive i can't keep up and I can't back down i've been losing so much time cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right i'm tripping on words you've got my head spinning i don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you there's something about you now i can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off of you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off of you what day is it? and in what month? this clock never seemed so alive xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |