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Sunday, October 23, 2005
well, turns out my lung collapsed again. i was re-admitted into the hospital this past tuesday and i just got out yesterday. had a very high fever all day yesterday, and it only ceded at 5am this morning. i miss not being able to breathe effortlessly. i miss not being able to exercise. i miss not being able to sleep comfortably. i miss not having an appetite, even when good food is set in front of me. i miss being able to earn my living at work. i miss being with people, and sharing in their life. i miss missing out on football games, parties, concerts, events. i miss all things that is life. but i'm looking forward to the day when i can experience it all again. xxx Monday, October 17, 2005 my health... has been really frustrating lately. i did get my tube taken out last wednesday, and i felt immediately better. but the next night, i drank some water too quickly and induced a coughing fit. since then, i have felt pressure in my lung, and parts of my chest and near my incisions feel like they have air under the skin. i've been passing my days with a lot of sleeping, eating, watching tv/movies, reading, and playing video games. it may seem like a nice life to some... but really, all i want to do is feel better, and not have to consciously be aware of how i'm breathing. sorry for the depressing post. please pray that i get better quickly. thoughts, emotions, feelings, concerns, the past, the future... all running through my head. xxx Sunday, October 09, 2005 well for those of you who don't know, or have wondered where i have been... i've been in jail for the last 2 weeks. i've been hurting really bad financially, so i decided to rob a convenience store. obviously, i got caught, thrown into the slammer, and even became someone's girlfriend while incarcerated. but alas, i am finally out, and boy is freedom nice. actually, i'm just kidding... what really happened was my left lung collapsed AGAIN. and i was in the hospital for 2 weeks AGAIN. had more blisters and therefore surgery AGAIN. and because my lung wouldn't fully inflate by itself AGAIN, i was stuck there for the aforementioned 2 weeks rather than the "couple of days" any normal person with a normal lung would have to stay. but i am out. thank God. i was dying in there. i must give shoutouts to the people who constantly called to see how i was doing, and if i needed anything, and if they could bring me food, or anything etc. etc. all of you made me feel really loved. i want to thank my brother caleb and billy the german especially... they came to see me the most. bill you are an awesome roomie and a great friend. caleb thanks for keeping me company most weeknights, bringing me food, and watching whatever was on tv with me that night. yep... so now its a couple more weeks of recouperating. gonna take a couple of weeks off of work. heal up. take it easy in getting back into the exercisin'. i feel blessed. i've really missed life. i've missed friends, family, linda. oh man... the simple things (like being able to breathe) is enough to put a smile on my face. (: xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |