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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
 well, i'm definitely back from hawaii. back to the real world. definitely a good thing, but kind of sucky too - cuz now i have to face reality! while i was there, i jokingly said that i would stay behind and just become a beach bum. so much for that! HA! :\ so... i'm finally back in san diego. spent christmas up in the bay area with the folks. short visit, but good visit. figured some things out - relationship-wise, job-wise (no more small companies, commission-based pay), ME-wise - i suppose. finally got my car back too. that thing has been a pain in the ass. i've put into it a total of approximately $3500 in repairs/maintenance. gave my brother-in-law $2500 for it, and i still owe him another $2500. :( i want a new car, but doesn't look like it'll happen for a loooong while. racking up the credit cards as well... with the hawaii trip, living expenses and just plain not working. hoping to have a job by the first of the year... but as of right now, nothing seems to fit just yet. regardless, i'm still thankful for all that i have. i have soooo much. my christmas present from my sister was a goat, donated to a poor family, in my name. when i first opened it up, i was like, 'aw, i wish it was something for me.' but looking back... i am so blessed. i have more than so many people. thanks for the reminder jieh. here are some of my favorite pictures from the recent events. be sure to check out the rest of them here!  mine and linda's feet  hangin' loose after a day of surfing at waikiki  dang... caleb's old. happy 25th bro!  grandpa/ian time  yes! he smiles at last! :D xxx Saturday, December 17, 2005 in sunny, hawaii... xxx Friday, December 09, 2005 i'm frustrated. frustrated in how much words mean, or how much an in-action affects me. just because people do or say or don't do or don't say something towards me... does that make me less important to them? i would hope not. but at the same time, how do you distinguish between what is truth/real if it is not backed by the appropriate action? but then one can ask, "what is appropriate action?" but that, in and of itself, can be many different things to many different people. GAH. i'm just so frustrated, i don't even know what exactly i'm frustrated about!!!! i no make no sense... ; *sigh* i just find all types of relationships draining. i wish people were more simple... ugh. without lies, without hidden agendas. hey, just do what you say you're gonna do, and say what you really feel... ok? i'll try not to judge you. i'll try not to impose anything-that-is-me onto you. could you do that for me too? could you? sometimes, i truly hate knowing exactly how i feel, and how to express it. most people just seem unable or unwilling to give that back to me... but, i still expect it. want it. yearn for the real person under all the layers, all the facade. maybe i really don't know what i want. all i knows is that i want something real. often times it seems i find it, then lose it, and now i'm searching for it all over again... (whatever 'it' is) ramble ramble blah blah. g'night. xxx Tuesday, December 06, 2005 lets see, what have i been up to. lots of sitting around still, yes... i am still taking it easy and trying to heal up. been job hunting as well... looking for something a little more stable, and even in its upward mobility, more stable. so key word is stable. stable office atmosphere. stable bi-weekly checks. stable non-bi-polar management staff. i have interviews lined up all this week. thanksgiving was good. spent it with the chaos. this past weekend was my mom's 60th birthday. so dad and us kids threw her a surprise party. it was awesome! thanks to my sister who did most of the leg work, it turned out great. we got about 100 or so of her closest friends together, and she was so surprised! too bad a couple people kind of gave it away. *sigh* thats the thing with chinese middle-aged people... they can't help but give surprises away. pictures are up on jusspress. aside from that... still poor. car blew up again. so now its gonna cost me more money to fix. was going to just say to-hell-with-it and get a new ride, but financially thats not really a smart thing to do. so i'm getting it fixed. argh, so frustrated with that. saw some good movies - city of god, house of wax, magnolia, and guess who. started swimming yesterday... it was tiring, but i felt so good afterwards and today. gonna swim everyday and maybe get some climbing in near the end of the week. then its off to hawaii next thursday! and now, i shall post my christmas want list. yes, i know, in advance, that i am materialistic, and that no one will really buy anything for me off of this list. but here it is anyways. :P for the bike: - ignition advancer - brake lines - dyno tune - ohlins steering damper - ohlins rear shock for me: - new motorcycle suit (mine have holes!), boots, gloves - arai corsair tommy gun helmet - new work wear (suit, shirts, ties, shoes) - sleeping bag - taylor guitar - trip to new york - civic si, lexus IS, or infiniti G35 yes, that is all. xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |