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Sunday, January 22, 2006

mid97west (22:24:31): holy crap
mid97west (22:24:34): kobe scored 81 tonight!!!
chrisclarke1 (22:25:36): yea i heard that on the news
chrisclarke1 (22:25:43): how does that happen?!?!
chrisclarke1 (22:25:51): like hey - who's got kobe?!
chrisclarke1 (22:26:09): and his teammates - hey man come on, my mom's here tonight
chrisclarke1 (22:26:13): lemme get at least a few shots in
mid97west (22:27:44): lol
mid97west (22:27:49): HAHAHA

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

i just finished watching 'must love dogs'. man, i am such a cheesy, sappy, romatic movie kind of guy. i highly recommend it - but obviously, only take that recommendation highly if you are similar to me. (: i must also say that diane lane is a very well-aged and beautiful woman. as i heard a comic joke, 'i'd walk down her lane!' haha. anyways, movies like these always make me glad and give me hope. so cheers to heart lifting movies.

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i received this in an email from me mum.

Lessons on Life:

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in the fall. When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe what they had seen.

The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted.
The second son said no it was covered with green buds and full of promise.
The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen.
The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment.

The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they had each seen but only one season in the tree's life. He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence of who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall.

Moral Lessons:

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.
Don't judge life by one difficult season. Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come.

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Monday, January 16, 2006

ok, so what exactly is going on with you josh?! i've shared with some of you, most probably don't know... but, i'm going back to school. i want to become a physical therapist. wow, how did you come to that decision josh? well, since i've been out of the hospital, i haven't been back at work. the mortgage industry started to become too unstable for me - unstable work environment, unstable market conditions, and most importantly... unstable paychecks. so, looking for a change, i started job hunting. what i realized was... i don't want to do anything in the finance/business field! i'm not the driven-climb-the-corporate-ladder-type... and my "un-success" in those fields was one indication. but i think the biggest indication was that i wasn't happy. i've already registered and signed up for pre-req classes and i start in feb.! hopefully i get those, along with GREs, done by the fall, then i'll start applying to physical therapy schools. i'm happy and excited that i now have a plan and goal to work towards... but at the same time, i'm scurred. haha. yeah, scared of not doing well in school, not getting into the schools i want, etc. but i suppose thats normal considering i've been out of school for so long already. i know that i can do it. i WANT to do it... and all that's left is a little work and determination. nothing to it mang!

aside from school, i've been looking for a part-time job. i have an interview with a physical therapist clinic this coming friday, hopefully it goes well. if it ends up being a volunteer position, i might have to temp or do something fun - like waiter or become a gardner or something. (: money has been tight, but lets just say i'm glad i've built my credit up from my college days. my day-to-day schedule has been pretty chill - just surf the web, listen to music, read, work on my bike, run errands, watch movies, and i'm on myspace a lot. HAHA. if you're on there... look me up! i'll be your friend! haven't exercised in about two weeks, so i'm going to start it up this week. just easy stuff... running and light weight stuff. its crazy... i know so many people training for half marathons and full ones! i'm tempted to do so myself... but with my iffy lung... i'll give it a little while longer. don't worry bout me... i'm taking care of myself.

this past weekend was a blast. saturday, hung out with some new homies. we saw munich, which was good... but it was also very long and violent. i had to pee about mid-way through the movie, and i held it until i absolutely couldn't take it anymore. so i ended up missing the last 2 mins. of the movie... but boy, the release was worth it. :) haha. then we went out to sushi for dinner... and afterwards drove all the way out to temecula to go country line dancing. yeah, can you believe it?! i didn't know something like that existed either. but yep. its there. and its called 'stampede'. yee haw! had a rockin' good time trying to keep up with the local cowboys and cowgirls... but i definitely knew what to do when the hiphop came on. haha yeah right. today, checked out horizonsd for church. then met up with my friend kenny who was visiting sd for his cousin's wedding... had some good california burritos and conversation at el coti's. the lifehouse concert at the san diego house of blues was on tonight's agenda, but it ended up being sold out. so chuckie came over with some of his ohio chili that we cooked up for dinner. it was... um, different, but good. heh. abc family had this made-for-tv movie called, "if only", with jennifer love hewitt. so yeah... us two emotional boys watched a chick flick together. and no we did not cuddle. i wanted to, but got denied. then we threw a log on the fire and had jessica alba kept us company with 'into the blue'. yeah, so that ends my nice little exciting weekend. i'm not looking forward to the weekdays coming up... cuz they just usually mean me sitting at home and being bored with myself. wow, i just wrote a whole bunch of crap. oh school, please start. oh job, please find me. that is all. bye bye.

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

wow, found this randomly on some-person-i-don't-know's blog. pretty interesting ... especially since i've been playing a lot of online poker and relationships have been on my mind. i don't necessarily agree with everything that he said... but he definitely touched on some fundamental relationship truths.

"If dating was a game, it would be poker.

We've all heard the saying, but its not like Operation (well..you know...) and definitely not like Halo. Dating is more a game of give and take. Both people playing mind games with each other, trying to gauge each others commitment to their hand or the pot. And sometimes if you meet the wrong girl, she will take you for all you're worth, leaving you emotionally drained and unconfident. Even if you have the best hand, bad timing can also bring you doom. Careful my brothers, for poker is a game where you risk your money AND pride....

Shuffle Up and Deal: So everyone is dealt two cards face-down in a randomly shuffled deck. Some cards look good together...like A-K, some are ok...K-J suited...and others jsut look exotic...Q-Q. Ahh yes the ladies. Just like life, we meet random people and get all shuffled up together. And if its high school, every possible card combination is bound to happen given enough time. This stage of poker is usually when you decide to play or not. Should I risk myself and spend the extra money to ride out these cards (maybe something like an A-2)...or should I just throw them away...because face it, the 2-7 looks ugly, has little potential for winning, and is annoying. Drinking does help you play a little looser though.

The Flop: Three cards dealt face-up for all to see. So what now? Say you had your A-2. maybe you flopped a 2-3-4. Those cards don't look so bad now huh? Got some play didn't you? Sly dogg. I can see it in your face. All flushed and happy. Even if it's not the best you've had, it's showing potential for that straight you can take home to momma. But what if you got nothing after the first three cards? Your percentage drops pretty significantly to get anything for the next two cards. Most people would trash their cards, but I prefer to ride it out. Money comes and goes...I call.

4th Street: So another card is flipped. Say for kicks its another 2. Yeee haw. The play just gets more exciting with time. You have your threesome safely in hand, and she's treated you pretty good up to now... It's a pretty secure hand so maybe you'll play it slow. Minimum raise. Now everyone else is thinking, "Why are you staying in this for so long? How come you're just putting the minimum in? And what the hell is so special about your hand? Why dont you bring her out?" Maybe you're ashamed of her. You know who you are...

The River: At this point there are no more cards. Everything is out on the table. No more Ryan secrets, no more "Whats the future have in store for us" questions. The future is set for you. Last card is a 6. OooOo. Thats dangerous. But in any case, the chance your opponent has a straight is pretty slim. They would need a 5-X, and who the hell plays those cards anyways? Considering you have that one of a kind three of a kind, your chances are pretty good. Take it to the next level and raise the pot. Thats right...I am Sooosoooo def about this hand. Late. But dating's not that easy...What if she goes all in? Dayyyyyam... all in? Fully commited? WTF. Then all these questions go through your head: IS this the right hand for me? What other cards are out there? Am I ever going to play another hand...again? Dang...what if I lose everything?

So brings us to the decision everyone needs to make: fold or commit. Different people play different hands, but in the end its all about how much you trust, love, and confide in the cards you are dealt. Nobody else but you knows your cards and what you've been through. My advice is to wait for that royal flush...bc given you've played enough hands, youre bound to pick it up and itll all be worth it. Or you can be like my friends and always get a free look at the flop and then fold."

on another interesting relationship note... http://music.yahoo.com/read/news/28561566

yes, i still owe a what's-going-on-with-my-life-post... be patient, its coming...

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Monday, January 09, 2006

did you know that postage went up 2 cents from $.37 to $.39?! i just found out! and i mailed something out today too! i guess its gonna get returned. :( SHOOT. a longer update coming soon...

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY!
life definitely keeps on moving...

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