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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i suddenly feel refreshed. i don't know if its the rain or the online scrabble game i played with a friend in new york. maybe it was just the day spent by myself, doing the things that i enjoy. or perhaps it was the season finale of 'the bachelor: paris' - seeing travis (the bachelor), follow his heart and choose sarah. i don't know what it is. but i'm tired of waiting. i'm done wishing things were different. i'm over it. i have it good. things are good. i can't rush life... all i can do is sit back and let it come to me... i will make the most of today. i will learn all that i can. i will love all those who love me, and even those that don't. i will smile, whether i am alone or in the company of others. i will be happy for those who have found a lover, or a friend. i will continue to pray and hope and know... that there are still many amazing people i have yet to connect with on my road of life. cheers, to another blessed day. xxx Thursday, February 23, 2006 yes, its been a while since i've posted anything. i wanted to post on valentine's day and continue a tradition of 'valentine's day rants'... but i was away on a cruise with my family (more on that later). anyways, the topic of relationships was again struck up in conversation with a friend over IM. first of all, i want to touch on the topic of commitment again. without it, you go nowhere... because there will always be one person who wants (or is committed to) the relationship more than the other. this goes hand-in-hand with being on the same page. if you're not on the same page, again, you don't go anywhere. if one person is waiting for the other to get on the same page... this is fruitless. you either are, or you aren't - there is no grey area. that is why working guy/college girl relationships hardly work out. different life stages = different wants/needs/dreams/passions. mind you, there are exceptions where there is more maturity in thought, emotion, and action... but this is rarely the case. lastly, i feel sad for people who are afraid of and shun commitment. many people view commitment as "tying them down"... but this is barely scratching the surface of what, i believe, true relationship is. i believe there is much freedom in commitment. "how is that?" you ask. for example... your married co-workers are always jealous of you being the carefree single guy. they envy your freedom and despise their wives for not letting them go out or go do this or that. but one of said co-workers always has rumors swirling that he's cheating on his wife. its no wonder his wife has him on a leash! if he was completely faithful, i believe his wife would know, and in turn allow him to pursue interests outside her scope. yes, getting to that point in any relationship takes much time, trust and vulnerability. and it can be abused, as many people (myself included) can attest to. i think when people can't commit it comes down to these things - they don't really love the other person, they don't know who they are themselves yet, they're afraid of being vulnerable and getting hurt, or they're just too afraid of finally having something good. anyways... not quite a rant... just some insight from relationship observations. ************************************************************** oh yes, the cruise. 1 week sailing the carribeans with the chiu and wong family aboard the carnival liberty! there was WAY too much food. it was incredible, especially coming from the poor and impoverished state that i am in. i definitely loaded up. the first 3 days felt like all we did was eat, sleep, and crap. we would eat so much at lunch, we'd have food coma. go take a nap, wake up, and it was time to eat again. then poo, nap, and wake up for midnight buffet. then sleep until lunch the next day and so on so forth... thank goodness we learned to pace ourselves after the 3rd day. there seriously must've been thousands of turds on that ship! HAHA :D we docked at 3 ports: freeport, bahamas; cayman islands and ocho rios, jamaica. here are a few favorites from the trip: ian: don't give me yove, don't give me yove! (he can't say his "L's" cuuuuute) self-explanatory... (: not the holidays, but they definitely have the spirit. =)  like the pose? (:  my girl zoe  a taste of what a cruise dinner entails...  a niece and her two uncles  me, the bro, and a beautiful expanse of ocean xxx Monday, February 06, 2006  sarah, susan, sarah, moana (i vote for the middle two) bachelor paris, you are the best. thank you abc for this spectacular show. travis, you seem like a very nice guy. i hope you're not one of those dicks that act nice on the outside, but you really have shady intentions on the inside. i hope you find what you're looking for. as for the girls... you are all beautiful. if you knew me, you'd want me too. but alas, i am no rich, buff, good-looking ER doctor. whatever happens ladies, know that there is someone else out there for you. yes, what i say right now probably doesn't mean anything for you. but when you finally find 'the one', you'll look back and agree with me. thats all the advice i have for tonight. your love doctor, joshua chiu, signing off. (edit 11:01pm: ok, so i made that blog halfway through the show. travis ended up not picking sarah in the middle - the reason being she's only 23, and he didn't want to be the one to get in the way of her discovering herself. and susan is a total faker. she never closes her eyes when he kisses her. HAHA. moana's kind of fake too. *sigh* what's up with fake girls. oh yeah, and i think my posts are still really immature... i wonder when i'll grow up.) xxx Saturday, February 04, 2006  happy saturday! xxx Wednesday, February 01, 2006 i started work last thursday. its been fun, relaxing and laid back. i wouldn't actually say that i'm learning a lot about how certain exercises work certain muscles... but i definitely am learning what it would be like to work in that environment. i only work 2 full days at the clinic per week, so i'm still in the process of getting another part-time job. school is starting up next monday... i'm excited! finally i'll be learning and 'on my way' towards my goal of applying to school. i still have books to buy tho... rats! those things are expensive. *sigh* aside from the job and the school, life has been... hmmm, whats the word... challenging. financially i am having it hard (so start of a job is good). just been taking huge hit after hit - hospital bills, car problems, car insurance, holiday travel (UGH), and no income. i don't want to borrow any more money (from people or credit cards) so i really have to hunker down and re-adjust my mentality on what/how/why i spend my money (errr, not MY money since its borrowed, but i'm sure you get the picture :\). looks like i will be quite stingy until i am done with school. gone are the eating out, movies, bike upgrades, and trackdays ::cry:: must survive somehow right? i have really been blessed by my new friends lately. they are so completely awesome. they call me almost daily whether to hang out or just talk... they encourage me, pay for dinners i can't afford, try to match-make for me, sing, dance, laugh, and give me splendid company. only good times so far, and more to come! you guys freakin' rock! anyways, i will leave you with my entertainment update for the month of februrary! *music* mae - mistakes we knew we were making imogen heap - hide and seek graham colton band - south citizen cope - pablo picasso tyrone wells - wondering where you are hilary duff - beat of my heart james blunt - goodbye my lover this day and age - tomorrow is waiting *movies* lord of war - 3.5/5 stars, i always like nicolas cage's movies unleashed - 3/5 stars, jet li movies are always enjoyable. this one he doesn't just act with his fists but has some emotional scenes as well my sassy girl (korean) - 5/5 stars, so freakin' hilarious. i also hope that i will have a story such as this to tell someday. (: *books* life of pi - yann martel kite runner - khaled hosseini xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |