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Monday, May 22, 2006
 wow, another beautiful san diego day... and no work! thank you Jesus! xxx Monday, May 15, 2006 "... For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." - 1 samuel 16:7 WOW. where do i even begin? its been about a month since i last posted and there has been so much going on in my life. so much GOOD stuff. so many blessings! as some of you know or may not know... i stepped away from God and church for a while. i would say, for about a year and a half. and in that time, God has taught me a lot, and put me through a lot. my 3 hospital trips in that time included: me blacking out and knocking some teeth out and 2 not-so-fun-half-a-month-long-stays-in-the-hospital lung collapses. i think at one point, i resembled lieutenant dan, in forest gump, yelling and cursing God while their ship went through a hurricane. i was bitter, i was angry, i shunned people, i shunned God, i blamed him for everything that happened to me. looking back, i am ashamed, yet graceful for His mercy on my life. perhaps all those things happened, as my mom says, because God removed His hand of grace from my life... yet, i know that He was there beside me, guiding me to where i am today. its so true that we as humans innately yearn and call out when we are at our deepest and darkest. mine was over the weekend, after my second discharge, as i battled a high fever for 3 days. i felt just like david did in psalms 6:6 - "I am worn out from groaning; all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears." through that struggle, along with relationships that i made while in the hospital... God has placed me into a community and back into his church. i've been so blessed. i cannot even begin to describe how i feel and the change in perspective i have on my life now. its no longer about me. its about loving God, trusting God, and loving others. TRUST - its what i'm learning the most right now - for my career, my relationships, my financial situation, etc. its not easy... but i'm getting there. if you've been praying for me, thank you! i'm looking forward to the months ahead. there is still the daily routine of school part-time and working part-time... that hasn't changed. but i'll be done with my pre-requisites needed to apply for physical therapy school by the end of the year. i still need to take my GRE's and apply to schools by september, so please keep those things in prayer too. work has been awesome... engaging people, learning about their lives, having good laughs and hopefully investing a little in them as well. its a blessing, because it doesn't feel like work at all! i'm also looking forward to concerts, camping, backpacking, trackdays, sunny weather, the beach, tan toes, 10k mud run, travels (paris perhaps?), deeper friendships, laughter. (: some pics of my recent happenings! rest are on my dropshots!  4.28.05 - "jc and chuckie g", tyrone wells @ lestats  5.07.05 - "me and the harley boys", after church ride along the coast  5.12.05 - "the gorillas", world famous san diego zoo  5.13.05 - "fobalicious", roadtrip w/ katy up to the bay  5.14.05 - "boba teeth", mother's day weekend trip home xxx |
 name: joshua chiu age: 28 birthdate: march 26, 1979 height: 6 feet weight: 172.5 lbs. location: san diego, ca loves: God, family, kids, motorcycles, sports, music, deep-meaningful relationships, competition over video games, food - any and all |